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thinking about upgrading to masto 3.2.0 and just, i don't want to go to the effort...

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idk like. it hit me real hard on its own. i dont know whether that's where i'm still at w all of it or it just broke the dam but either way like. talking through it in therapy is a thing that i probably need to do.

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idk like. i want to talk things through. but im still not over last week which is? not great??

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it's also in person which i almost forgot about lol

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feeling really in need of therapy! thankfully i have something booked in for thursday.

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Too long as it is already. At some point I'm supposed to be kind to myself too.

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I first raised issues *seven months ago*. Nothing has gotten better, and arguably things have gotten worse as with recent events and crashing out of the latest round of couples therapy. When is it OK to just say I'm done?

update: lol i can't get enough of this ink though augh it is such a shame that i refilled the tornado w lamy black so recently since i have to get through that first @.@

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in the office again this morning blah

sometimes it's necessary

new fountain pen today. Twsbi eco. Super smooth writing but way too light to be a daily driver, will likely stick w the tornado for everyday use. put pilot yama-budo ink in it, I love the color & dry time

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2020 has not uh been great.

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yep. It's done. 24 hours and I just feel fucking empty.

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trust broken. not sure if recoverable.

been a busy few days. wrote what feels like a lot of code but what was probably mostly just debugging. but things work and that feels good.

I could have slept but instead I stayed up till 1 in the morning writing python whoops

Work was wildly stressful today but at least it ended on a relatively high note

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the adhd experience: well, i have something to do at 6 tonight, so that means i cant do anything for the entire day. but i will somehow still be late

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