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In the interest of not being a downer I may not be super present for a few days.

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working for longer than my standard day and crying for an hour in between things doesn't leave a ton of time to actually accomplish anything so it's a bit tricky

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i need to bake a pie tonight but i'm not sure i have the time to do it

Glad I've got ok pain tolerance. Whew.

my caffeine consumption is way up again probably not great

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i wish i were less of a horrible emotional mess all of the time. i think that would really help

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If y'all wanna read some πŸ”₯, @hugh posted this piece about maintenance and memory on Saturday and I was like "oh this will be interesting!" and then ended up reading the whole thing with my hand over my mouth like "oh damn."

hughrundle.net/shiny/

I started a private maplestory-circa-2008 server on my local network to relive some memories of Alli's First MMO and despite the odd private-server quirks it's done a good job of bringing back endless grind memories

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I think my baseline has been reset to sad, because neutral days have started to feel like good ones

has discord been just like, not working for anyone else this morning

Feeling emotionally worn down. Not negative, I think, just overwhelmed. Need some time to breathe.

selfies, ec x2, transition progress comparison thing 

i've come a long way

inability to keep my phone charged

there's a special good feeling when shuffle play brings up a series of Good Bops while you're highway driving. I just hit it

Got some new clothes today. The way I look in them makes me feel really good about myself. Thank you, validating mirror.

Inability to add a CW to a boost is due to it not being supported in ActivityPub spec, right? Cause sometimes I see things I'd like to boost but don't want to because they're things I would normally CW

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there's an interesting point in terms of bad feelings where all the things that are contributing are either too big for one to affect meaningfully or too volatile to touch, and that's the point i've hit today. doesn't feel good. feels hopeless. Don't like it

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